I'm a bit miffed!

So today I read a post that kind of well, let's not sugar coat, it pissed me off!

I follow a page on Facebook that is about this guy who's lost quite a chunk of weight and at first I thought, this is going to inspire me so I hit the 'like' button and started reading most of which was good content, but lately I have noticed that this person is hell bent on just being noticed.

Today he wrote about how he'd had a hard time trying to get his story on a multitude of tv shows, magazines, newspapers etc and how annoyed he was that none of them wanted his story, but the fact is, there are so many stories just like his, this stuff is old news. My question is this why does getting into the media matter? He has a Facebook page with a HUGE readership, everyone praises him and spend time on his page so why did he feel the need to to use his weight loss as some kind of fame gathering exercise because that's the message I was getting from him. It's a shame, but he's not the only one, I have found a few pages like this and it's sad, it's almost like they've lost their weight and now because they've done it, they want to be rewarded for it. Isn't being healthy reward enough? He goes on to mention at the end of the post that he has given up his pursuit of getting his story into the media and will just post on Facebook.

I'm getting pretty annoyed by people who use their weight loss purely to get famous. Why can't they be satisfied with their FB pages, or blogs, why not write a book, even a recipe book of the food they ate while losing the weight, that's the information I find extremely useful. The problem with trying to align yourself with mainstream media is that the second they've had enough of you and you've sold enough advertising slots for them, you're gone!

I myself am in the process of writing a cookbook for three reasons, I like to photograph food, I hope that the recipes I put into the book are helpful to others and I've always wanted to do it. I don't care if nobody buys it, I don't care if I don't get recognised or rewards or anything like that, I just care that I do it because I'm the type of person who will start a project and not finish. Having a project or a hobby to focus on is a great way to keep you busy and have you concentrate on something other than weight loss, find your passion and get to it and whatever you do, lose weight for you.

Rant over! xx

I've nearly jumped ship so many times!

I cannot believe it's already July and so far this year, my weight loss has not been crash hot, in fact it's been a bit of a disaster. I have lost and gained weight more times than I care to remember. In the past few months I have let my focus slide backwards and have caught myself eating the wrong things again. This was always going to happen at some stage. After reading a post that my beautiful friend wrote tonight about her struggle, it made me re-think why the hell I started this in the first place, what was the reason for doing it because lately I have lost my mojo!

So after reading her post three times, I sat down and wrote a reply and read what I wrote about my reason for losing weight and here is part of what I wrote:

"I want a better life, a healthier life more than anything in the world, I don't care about clothes or looks or money, I care about my life and my place in the world. When I am on my death bed the last thing I EVER want to be thinking is "I wish I had lost the weight, things could've been so different" that thought terrifies me!

After writing this it was like a huge church bell rang in my head and now I'm ready to continue. I am no longer going to put time limits on my goals I am just going to keep on keeping on. Yes I could've lost all my weight by now, but what is the point of dwelling on that except to make myself feel like a failure and go eat a cheesecake! I don't want that, I don't need that. As long as I give myself permission from time to time to have something that I really want BAD such as today, I had a burger, then I will never feel deprived.

I have lost 30kg, there is nothing to be upset about that, I am not a failure, I am slowly winning this, it's only now that I realise that I am doing a good job, I am changing my life, I can do this! All I need to do is make a few tweaks here and there to my diet because my workouts these days are quite strenuous so I cannot survive on rabbit food any more, I must refuel properly or else I will be diving for that cookie jar, which has been happening.

Exercise has been my saviour! I love it and do it every single day without fail! If I do not move my butt at least once a day, I will not sleep well and be the biggest grump on the planet in the morning!

So starting in the morning, a new revitalised and school assignment free Barbara will once again punch this weight loss in the ass!

Always remember your biggest motivator is yourself because you are the only one who can really make yourself do what you need to do and as your see changes taking place on your body and within yourself emotionally, you will gain so much drive you'll be unstoppable! 

Take charge of your life today, I am! :) xx

Apologies, yes I know it's been a while.

Where do I begin? it's been quite a while since I wrote my last post I cannot even remember what I wrote last!

Over the past few weeks I have had a few struggles with my personal life and although I have said many many times that I don't let things like that steer me away from my goal, that is in fact what happened recently. I gave in to negative annoyances and was led astray for a little while.

A few weeks ago, I weighed in at 105kg (231lb) then last week shock horror, I hopped onto the scale and saw the awful number of 108.6kg (239.5lb) OMG!!! I had gained 3.6kg! So over the last week it was time to focus and get busy! I ate well most of the time, managed to get in 12 workouts and after weighing on Monday this week I am down to 107.2kg (235.8lb) yay! So now it's just a matter of keeping up the good work!

I have started vlogging again but this week I cannot make a video as I am very busy with my portfolio for school. This week is my final week and then hopefully, I will have earned my Diploma in Digital Photography. Here is one of the submissions for my folio, I am creating it in the style of Weston and am using vegetables and I love the textures.

Next week I will definitely have another video for viewing and hopefully some good news on another good loss for the week.

Have a great week and thanks for stopping by!

Barbs xx